Ok, so I was crying and feeling sorry for myself last night. Picturing ways to 'off myself'... WHO DOES THAT!?
Me... tired, stressed and forgot to take my crazy pills. THAT is not how I think ... usually.
I woke up this morning to gloom.. rain... dreary day.. all the snow is melting and what is left is black and dirty slush. I then thought... even with all this gloom.. me losing my job.. being alone.... why the hell would I think that way??! I'm sorry if you read the blog and were like... 'What the fuuuuck'... I was feeling like a failure... a fuck up... but that gives me no right to talk like I did.
I take it back.. and am going to do something with my life... give myself purpose... make changes.
Starting today.
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everyone goes thru something similar to some degree Alexa. several years back I was sitting here in the basement after getting a "Dear James" note and thinking if anybody would miss me if I wasn't here. fortunately, I realized that the answer was yes and picked myself up off the couch and got busy doing simple things to clear my head of those thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI have been unemployed a couple of times also and it really sucks trying to find a job when no one seems to give a damn about what qualifications you have.
I know you can do anything you set your mind to. you are stronger than you think. keep thinking positive, ok?