I think I'm being tested....

Yeah....that's what I've decided.

Things seem to pile on me.. is it because I haven't broken yet? Is it because I can somehow handle things that others couldn't? I don't handle things well, I'm very emotional, but they happen... and they happen to me.

I was washing clothes on yet another unemployed day. Let the dogs out... picked up a bit outside... looked at the grass, and couldn't see my dogs.. ugh.. how embarrasing. Let the dogs in .. went upstairs to get sheets to wash next.

Got to the basement door and realized the water was still running?

There was water ALL OVER basement. I skip ran the steps making it to the washer as fast as I could to shut it off. This can't be happening... last week the dryer started not turning off, so I have to remember to stop it when things are dry. So, I spent all day cleaning up water and letting the basement air out. All I could do is stare at my washer... wanting to take a sledge hammer to it.

I decided to come upstairs and take a breather... try to relax and breathe.

I then got in my car because my lawyer wanted to meet with me to sign papers. (yeah, a whole long OTHER story) I'm driving along and sudennly feel a thump thump and I feel tilted. So, I turned around because I wasn't far from home. I get out and walk around the car... a HOLE the size of my hand was in my back tire. I have a flat.. not a fixable flat, but a FLAT. I kicked it.

I'm stranded now at home with a car jacked up in my garage because I can't get the damn thing off. I've had to reschedule with the lawyer and my basment smells like wettness now. I don't have a job, and I don't have money that I'm making like I have since I was 14.

(oh, and I can't remember if I said anything, but my toilet broke last week as well and I had to clean up water *clean thankfully* because something busted.. and now it needs a new supply line and toilet)

I look up at the sky and just wonder if I'm being tested... If someone is trying to see how far I can be pushed until I break... I'm beginging to wonder if it's close.